There are some songs that brings you joy and some like Iridescent that becomes a beacon to overcome struggles in life and guide you in the cathartic journey. At some point in life, we all go through a period where darkness seems to engulf our very existence, and at one point, I found myself grappling with an overwhelming sense of desolation. The walls of my world, once filled with the warmth and light of loved ones, were closing in, their comforting presence fading away. Each day unfolded as a relentless challenge, waking up to a reality where their absence was a constant, painful reminder of what was lost. It was a time when despair seemed to have a suffocating grip on me, making even the simplest acts of daily living feel like insurmountable tasks.
Amidst this engulfing darkness, it was the haunting strains of Linkin Park’s “Iridescent” that emerged like a flicker of light through the oppressive clouds. The song, with its poignant lyrics and stirring melody, resonated deeply. It was as if each word was a direct address to what I was feeling, acknowledging the pain and the struggle of holding onto hope in the face of overwhelming grief. The lyrics, “Do you feel cold and lost in desperation? / You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known,” spoke directly to my state of being, articulating the despair that had become my constant companion.
Yet, within the lyrics of Iridescent, I found not just an echo of my pain, but also the strength to fight on, one day at a time. It encouraged me to begin the arduous task of rebuilding myself from scratch, to search for the meaning of life amidst the ruins of my grief. The song’s powerful chorus, urging to “let it go,” became the guiding principle in learning to release the weight of my sorrow and to embrace the possibility of a future still worth living.
This journey of healing led me to a profound realization: the need to set an internal locus of control. I began to understand that while I could not control the losses life had thrust upon me, I could control how I responded to them. It was about looking inward, finding strength in my resilience, and learning to walk alone, albeit with the memories of my loved ones etched in my heart. Music, particularly “Iridescent,” became a sanctuary, a source of peace in the midst of chaos. It was in these melodies that I found solace, a companion in my solitude, and the courage to face each new day. The path to recovery was not linear; it was filled with setbacks and moments of doubt. However, the transformative power of music remained a constant, a beacon that guided me through the darkest corridors of grief towards a place of acceptance and newfound strength.
In this journey, I learned that while we may have to walk some paths alone, we are never truly bereft of support. It exists in the memories of those we’ve lost, in the art that touches our souls, and in the inner resilience that we all possess. The journey through grief and rebuilding is a testament to the human spirit’s capacity to endure, to find light in the darkest of places, and to emerge with a deeper understanding of life’s intricate tapestry.
Here is the music video if you have not seen it: